Yesterday I started to feel the worry coming back. The worry I experienced in the first tri-mester when I wasn't sure things would work out. Of course we made it through that point and here we are. I always have worried but it seems like the past few months have been better. Today marks my 30 weeks! We are ten weeks away from my due date and I couldn't be more excited and happy to meet and hold and love my baby boy. But somehow I'm starting to worry so much because we are so close of all the what ifs. Like we've made it this close, He's my baby. He's my everything and I already feel like he's out and in our lives and I just wish I new he would be safe and sound and come out fine. So I pray! I pray constantly for his safety and wellness.
I also started to realize today, just how blessed we truly are as women. Even though it may be uncomfortable and a pain sometimes pregnancy really is such a blessing. The fact that we as women are chosen to experience it just amazes me. Its sad, my hubby can't feel these kicks from inside of him. Talk to him all day long or just know he's in there listening or sleeping while I work. I'm sorry to any women reading this blog that hasn't reached this place in there journey yet or who may never be able to experience this. I am not by any means trying to rub this in any of your faces. I pray for all of you so much, I think of all of the girls on my blog that are suffering, that are expecting, that are exploring other journeys, and I know its hard to read about all the pregnant women every day.
I just had to say how special it truly is that we as women are chosen by God to experience this. It is beautiful and amazing.
So as I said I'm 30 weeks today. I can't believe it. Last week was a good week, Cooper isn't moving as much or I should say as strong as he has been in the past. It started to scare me so today I started counting kicks and he's still kicking well over 10 kicks every two hours but its just such soft kicks. I assume he's crammed in there and that's why?
I see my doctor on Friday so I will definitely ask.
Sunday morning I awoke to a terrible jab of pain in my lower right side. IT HURT SO BAD! I cried. I was at my parents visiting and I lay on there couch with little tears running down the side of my face (not sobs or anything just a few small tears). But my mom asked if I was ok, I explained that it was a sharp pain in my lower side, Nothing I had felt before. I could barely stand up straight. I kept having BH'S too. My mom went to wake my husband while I lay there in agony. He came and comforted me as he always does. Talked me into getting up and walking slowly and he and my mom suggested I take a warm shower and then see how it felt. I showered and walked and sure enough it subsided. I assume it was a pulled muscle.
The day before we spent the day with my parents, brother, sister in law and niece Natalie. Natalie had put her hands up for me to pick her up quite a few times throughout the day and it was hard to resist her she's so dang cute. So I did and I'm assuming I pulled a muscle doing that.
I posted a few pics of my cutie pie niece playing in the sprinkler and then some of my brothers and hubby. Me and my sis in law and me and my niece. It was a great weekend, I absolutely LOVE my family. They are my everything so here are some pics of our fun weekend with the fam.
This Saturday is our shower, I can't wait to post how it went!
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You look so cute! I hope I look that cute when I am 30 weeks pregnant! I just found out that I am expecting :) I started another blog . . babyschuler.blogspot.com Going to the dr. tomorrow!
I think Alex went through a part where she didnt kick as much! Hope your pains have gone away :) I am just starting to get them and morning sickness! ICK
It truely is a blessing to be a woman. I would not change it for the world. You are right, it is painful and uncomfortable at times but it is all worth the journey. Even though I have three girls, each time is a new beginning and a new journey. Pregnancy and birth itself is amazing to me. Maybe that's why I am a Labor and Delivery nurse now! Ten weeks is such a short time in the whole scheme of things. Hang in there girl!
Awwww look at your tummy, just growing nicely.
Yes pregnancy is a beautiful thing and i remember being pregnant and thinking how i felt like the luckiest girl alive and i too was sad sometimes that my hubby misses out on what its like to grow life inside you.
I will say a prayer for you and baby cooper and just know that everything will be alright, Its totally normal to have worries and then worry more when a new "pain" comes or you dont feel like the baby is moving as often as before.
It definately does start getting crowded in there at this point but as long as he is moving like he should then no worries.
Oh and you have a beautiful family and a gorgeous niece.
You look beautiful! Pregnancy is such a beautiful and amazing thing. I think it has been one of my favorite times in life. I had a whole new perspective on every little thing that came across at that point in my life! Your niece is so beautiful. I always worried about different pains or symptoms while I was preggo w/ Charli Beth, but everything was always just fine! I look forward to seeing new pictures and post from you! This post was so sweet, I'm so happy that you have been blessed with a baby!!
30 weeks! Wow !!! So exciting! I think of you and baby boy often and am so glad your are loving the gift of life growing inside of you!!! You are so blessed!
My shower is saturday too!! Just ten weeks left for you! I feel the same way that you do, worrying, worrying and worrying some more. I don't know why, everything's been going so well, I think it's because we're so close to the end that we think something's just bound to happen. I started to feel her kicks less too, I called the doctor and they were none too concerned since I still felt a few kicks an hour. But I can tell she switched positions so maybe yours is doing the same. They say the movement will be less around this time because of the lack of space but it does nothing for our nerves to say the least. I'm glad you're doing well, all worrying aside.
Congrats on being at 30 weeks! That is wonderful! I feel that as women, we are very lucky. We go through the hard times, but the good times are just so good :)
yes, it's so true, we are very lucky to be able to live through this!
And the worry must really be a part of pregnancy, I hear that it's especially a part of the first pregnancy (you don't have much time to think of worries and pains when you've got kids running around needing you, I guess :) ). But don't worry, you're far along and it will all be allright... And, remember to pack your hospital bag soon, I gave birght at 37 weeks... - thankfully I got that bag packed just a bit earlier. :)
Your neice is such a cutie...love that toothy grin!
I remember being worried about the same thing with all three of my pregnanies! Each time the ob would reassure me that it was just beacuse the baby was running out of room! I'm sure that's what it is, but it will be reassuring to hear the dr say it!
Yes, though it can be uncomfortable, pregnancies is such a joy!!
You are right! Being a woman is a wonderful thing. I look at Natalie everyday and thank God that I was able to bring her into this wonderful world. You will do the same with Cooper. We are all so excited to finally meet him and hold him and love him! I can't wait to be the cool Aunt! I want to spoil him with boy toys, games, dirt and fun! (not that natalie isn't into dirt :) We love you so much and have a blast when you are here also! Can't wait for the shower! I think it will turn out great!
jamie
Hi, I'm kinda blog hopping here. I enjoyed your photos here. Very cute. :)
i'm praying for you sweetie! you and baby Cooper are in good hands (Jesus's) :)
I know that shirt... "baby makes the belly go round"
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