Hoping for Hoberts asked:We all desperately wanted a baby and had to jump through a million hoops to get here however..... What do you miss about not having Coop around?
The thing I miss the most about not being a mom is the sleep. I know that sounds crazy but I don't handle the lack of sleep well and I get so exhausted. I feel nauseous and I get rude. Its by far the best trade off ever though. I know I will get back to a place where I can get a good nights rest again but right now it seems really far away.
The Rolands, Lea Liz asked:How did you and your husband meet?My husband and I met when we were 15 years old through a friend. He took me to my 9th grade formal dance that year. We talked on the phone all the time. Wrote notes back and forth in school but didn't start to actually "go out"/Date until a week after my 16th birthday. We dated ever since. The first time I met Julian he was so quiet and shy, We hardly even spoke. I thought he was cute of course but it was hard to get to know him. I was nervous and insecure, he was shy. But somehow we made it happen and finally did date.
She also asked.How did he propose?Our dating anniversary was on August 11th. We had been dating for 5 years and he came to pic me up at my apartment. I was 20 years old. He came in and we had dinner plans to celebrate our anniversary. He looked so nervous, I was wondering what was going on.
We had both dressed up and looked really nice. We sat and talked for a minute before we left, then we got up to leave to go to dinner when he stopped me and got down on one knee. He was teary eyed and choked out the words "will you marry me"? I was truly surprised. Of course I said yes. We cried and hugged. I was in shock. I of course called my mom and dad and he called his to tell the good news. We ended up going to a park and spending some time together talking (mostly me talking) about what colors we would use, who would be in the wedding. It was my dream come true, I had always wanted to talk about those things with him but didn't want to seem like some crazy chic. We went to dinner where he ended up telling me that he had planned to ask me later that night to marry him but that he was so nervous he thought he was going to be sick if he didn't just go ahead and do it then. :) It was a truly great night. It was such a beautiful day to top it off. We have great memories of that day.
She also asked.Where are your favorite places to shop?I LOVE to shop. I have a serious problem. I've gotten much better the past year or so but honestly I have a shopping addiction. Mainly for clothes. I have a ton.
I like cheap and trendy clothes. That way each year I can pretty much redo my wardrobe. I shop at Forever 21, Charlotte Russe, Francessca's, sometimes the Gap, and Express but I like to stick to the cheap clothes.
Hope asked:Has motherhood been what you expected?Yes and no. Motherhood has surprised me in many ways. It is the most amazing gift.
I was amazed at the truly strong bond and love that immediately took over me when I had him. For the protective crazy love I have for him. Its hard sometimes. I get really tired and worn out and exhausted and frustrated. But somehow I am able to enjoy his little faces he makes, the noises, the different cries (although sad, they are also adorable). He has a few different cries and my husband and I like to impersonate them. In a nice way of course :)
I have had to get used to everything being about him. Nothing is about me anymore. My life revolves around what he needs and when, who he's with, if he's OK, is he happy and fed and clean. It revolves around him and that's fine. But it is an adjustment. I have had to get used to waking up earlier to take him to his sitters, I've had to realize that I have to go to work every day and leave him. Although he's with family its been such a hard thing to do. Its not me with him every day and that breaks my heart.
Contrary to what some people say your life does not end when you have a baby. Yes it changes but my husband and I still can go to dinner or to a friends, We can still do things. Its just a little different. So don't listen to people when they say "enjoy your last few days of freedom, You'll never have it again". Not true. Not true at all.
She also asked:What is the best thing about being a mom and what is the hardest?The best thing is looking at his face and seeing my husband. Knowing that he and I and God made this beautiful miracle. And that I was chosen to be his mom, to raise him and teach him and love him always. Its the best feeling in the world. I look forward to so many memories we will make with him in the future.
The hardest is the adjustments. The lack of sleep, the change in your morning routine (if you have to go back to work). But truly I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm still trying to learn to adjust. Its amazing that my life has changed so much in just the past two months. For the better but its a huge change and I believe it takes time to get fully comfortable with these big changes in your life.
Motherhood is amazing though.
Emily asked:How did I meet my hubby? But since I answered that one above I will move onto the next question she asked me.
Did you go to college? Where?This is a hard question for me. I'm not one to say that all people have to go to college and that if you don't your a loser or anything like that.
I went to a community college near my house in Tulsa. At the time my parents lived in Norman where they had moved a few years earlier. I moved back to Tulsa because that is where my friends and some aunts, and grandparents lived. I wanted to live near my boyfriend. I decided to move back. I went to the community college and planned to transfer over to a university. However plans changed. I got a job, started doing bad in college, got engaged and basically let it slip through my fingers. I regret not finishing to college. I know I can still go back and I would love to but my main priority is being in my sons life. I have so many things I'd like to do but being home every night and weekend and spending what time I can with my son is my top priority.
I have a great job, I make good money. I am lucky to have that. But I will feel a void for not finishing school. Its something I always wanted to do for myself and maybe one day I will?
She also asked:What's your favorite book?I'm not a big reader. But I absolutely LOVED the twilight series. Wow, Those books took complete hold over me. They are what got me through the ivf. I needed something to take my mind off of things. We had to travel 6 hours to do the transfers. It took 3 trips and about 10 days out of town total to get the whole ivf process done. My doctor administered the meds here in Tulsa but I had to drive to st. Louis for the end process 3 different times. Needless to say we weren't at home, we were in a hotel and those twilight books are what got me through. Without loosing my mind. I was so engulfed in what would happen next I tried to focus on them and not on my complete fears and worries about the ivf. Although I was still very much worried and thought about what we were going through constantly those books kept my attention and helped me through.
Our family asked:I know you had difficulty getting pregnant with Cooper. Are you planning on trying to have any more children in the future? If so, how many years would you like to wait between children?Yes we did have troubles getting pregnant. I am most definitely planning on trying again. I want 3-4 kids if God will bless us with them. With me having pcos I am under the understanding that it will only get harder with each year my body ages. So I of course being 27 this year don't want to put it off to long. My husband and I plan on trying the ivf again when Cooper is around 1 year old. We have to pay off the ivf bills before we can try again. But until then we are not using anything to prevent. Although when I do, there is a big chance I could have a miscarriage. I only say that because we have some sort of morphing problem with our embryo's. We need to do further testing to see what happened when we did our ivf. We took out 12 eggs and on day 3 they were looking great, we were told we should have lots to freeze and a few great quality to put back in. By day 5 they had nearly stopped growing. They told us we probably wouldn't be able to do the ivf. We waited for a miracle and on day 6 we got a phone call that 1 had made it to day 6. We don't know what happened to the rest or why they just suddenly stopped morphing. But with the grace of God we were able to implant that one egg and now we have a beautiful son. However we are now afraid of having a miscarriage "If" I even am able to get pg on my own. Which is a small chance since I hardly ever ovulate. But we are leaving it up to God. We are praying for another miracle and for the opportunity to get pregnant on our own and for it to be a good pregnancy. and If not we will go back for another round of ivf for baby number two and hope and pray it works.
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