Bedlam Saturday. OU vs. OSU

This past Saturday was the big bedlam game. Oklahoma University vs. Oklahoma State University. My husband is a huge OSU fan and I'm a huge OU fan. So we dressed Coop up in orange and red (the teams two colors). My husband won on the shirt this year but I got the socks and hat. He looked so dang cute. We went over to my best friends house to watch the game and I took some pictures of us with Cooper. His first bedlam game. Guess what MY TEAM WON!! WOOHOO~ Go sooners!

The cysts are at it again

The cysts are back. I can't believe I was stupid enough to think that because I just had a baby that I might actually have one regular cycle. YAH RIGHT!
Let me just give those of you who don't know a quick reminder of my past monthly cycles and struggles with inferility. I have Polycystic Ovarian syndrome. I don't always ovulate and when I do who knows when it will be. We tried for years, then tried fertility drugs, IUI'S and Trigger shots. Then it was onto IFV. As so many of you have done yourselves. So that brings us to today. I'm not saying I don't know what PCOS is and what it intales. All I'm saying is that for some stupid reason I seriously got excited at the thought that when I stopped nursing that my body would have a month or two that it acutally ovulated when it was supposed to. I would have been completely fine with getting pregnant immediately with number two if it could happen on its own and that meant we didn't have to go through all the meds, emotions, money and worries that IVF brings. But unfortunately I was WAY WRONG! Of course the first cycle I was supposed to have was all messed up just like before I got pregnant. I started. Three days later I stopped. Then 8 days later I started again, lightly for 3 days. Then wham I stopped again. Now I have a lovely cyst on my face. One of those fabulous painful bumps you get on your face. Trust me you would know if you've ever had one. They are horrible. You can't mess with them it just makes it worst. Its just a hard red, painfull, throbbing solid bump on your face. They are terrible and I only get them when I'm not on something to help regulate my periods. Of course I had to get one now.
Even worse is that today is our family Christmas pictures and I had to ask my cousin (who is the photographer) is she could edit out the hideous red lump on my chin. Luckily she thinks she can but seriously its like I'm fifteen all over again. Not to mention the pain involved.
Today I finally let it sink in that it is near impossible for me to ever get pregnant on my own and that I better brace myself for another round of meds, more years of issues.
I want all of you to know that I am SO BLESSED and so thankful for my angel baby Cooper. I'm not trying to be selfish. I want to try for more babies and of course it doesn't sound too appealing when it means I have to put my body through even more meds, even more stress to get it but its all worth it so I most definitely plan on doing it. I just feel stupid for letting myself actually sit here and think that I might be able to get prego on my own this time. Did I learn nothing from the time before I was pregnant?
Anyways, I just wanted to mention this because Its like it hit me like a ton of bricks today and made me really sad. Its times like these that I just don't understand why some of us have so much trouble having babies. And its usually the women who will be amazing parents. People who deserve to have children, to love and raise right. It amazes me that we are the ones who have to do all of this. But I know it all happens for a reason, I know that God will take us through this. That God is making these things happen this way for a reason. I also know deep in my heart that I'm meant to have a few more kids in this life. I know it will happen and I just pray right now that God give us more miracles and for the strength to get through whatever we have to do to get them.

I also would like to pray for all women, women who have no children yet and women who do have children. That they will feel Gods presense in there life. That they will be strong and believe in his work.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Today is Thanksgiving 2009. My sons first real holiday minus Halloween. We had a wonderful day spending time with family. I have so much to be thankful for, way to much to list. But here are a few of the very most special things I am thankful for.

For my beautiful family, the love that God pours into my family is amazing. Extended and Immediate family. My husband and baby, parents, siblings, cousins, the whole group. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family.
For my health
For my home, so warm and cozy. A place our family comes to every night to be together.
For my job, they take such good care of us. Even during a time when so many are loosing there jobs.
and for the constant reminder that God is in my life every single day and every single second always! I have so much to be thankful for!

I hope all of you had a great turkey day!

Our weekend with our family

This weekend we went to Norman to visit my parents. We had such a good time. My hubby and I were able to get there in time to drop by my moms work and visit her before she got off. She took Cooper to meet some of her work friends who politely stared and smiled at him but didn't touch (thank goodness, due to all the illness floating around). We had friends and family over for dinner on Friday night. We all had a great time laughing and eating and visiting.
Saturday, mom, my sister in law and niece, Cooper and I all went shopping for the day. We had fun. I got Coopers Christmas, Thanksgiving and Christmas picture outfits. Didn't spend much either because the Gap is having a huge sale. I got some great stuff for him that will look so darn cute.
Saturday night we all went out to dinner for my dad's birthday. We had a great time. Cooper slept peacefully in his car seat in the sling for the entire dinner. That was really nice.
Also I have to tell you all what he did for the first time ever this weekend.
Wait for it............

COOPER SLEPT FOR 7 HOURS STRAIGHT! YES THAT'S RIGHT YOU READ THAT CORRECTLY. I'M ECSTATIC!
granted he slept in his baby bathtub all night. Its true, He won't sleep in his pack and play but if we lay a blanket in his little whale tub and swaddle him he sleeps just great. So shamefully I am posting that yes my son slept his first 7 hour stretch in a bathtub. But hey it elevates him for his acid reflux and he is happy and safe. That's all that matters to me.
He slept 6 hours on Saturday night and 6-1/2 hours last night. I'm so happy.
Yay Cooper.

Sunday we spent the day with our family just visiting. Grandma and Grandpa spent time with Cooper and Julian and I snuck off to church without him so we didn't have to rush to the cry room in the middle of church. That was sort of nice. I was able to focus on what the priest was saying.

I am going to post a few pics of this weekend of my dads birthday, uncle Matt holding Cooper and my niece. And a few of Coop smiling. Oh yes and one of Cooper in his cousin Eddie Christmas hat. I love that hat!

I tried to post a cute video of Cooper sitting in his bathtub Sunday at my parents but I couldn't get it to upload. I'll try again tonight or tomorrow.

I hope all of you are good.

Christmas pictures

The time that I imagined for years and years of my early adult life is finally here. The day I get to take my first real "family" Christmas picture. The picture I get to have taken of my husband and I and our sweet baby boy. I always imagined sending out that Christmas card the year we had our first baby and what it would look like and say. Now the time is almost finally here. We are taking them the day after Thanksgiving. I can't wait. This weekend my goal is to go looking for a precious little outfit to dress Cooper in for our family shots. Hmmm? I haven't even really decided on a theme or color what we are all going to wear. So I have some work to do.
I have all of these ideas but I'm not sure what I'm going to go with.

This week has been good so far. Cooper is sleeping longer hours at night but still waking up for his 4-5:00 feeding. But he's getting better at going down around 11:00 and sleeping until then. Which really isn't bad. I'm not complaining, at least we are on the right track to sleeping all night long. :)
Cooper has also found the use of his legs, he wants to push off and stand all the time. He just loves for you to hold his little waist and he pushes off with those feet like such a big boy. He just stands so tall (of course we are holding nice and tight to his tiny little waist) but he thinks he's such a big boy. Its adorable.

He is just so much fun and I've realized that he is by far in the very best of moods every morning at about 6:30 when we wake him up to get him ready for Nana's house. He just smiles all morning long. He looks around and smiles up a storm. Its the best ever to watch and just smile back and it truly starts my day out so good every day. I just love love love him.

This weekend, well actually tomorrow afternoon we are going to visit my parents and brothers. I'm really looking forward to spending some time with them. Its my dads birthday and I just love and adore him so much, I'm so glad we are going to be able to go and celebrate with him. Happy birthday Dad!

I will be posting pics from our fun weekend and also I'm off work on Monday. I took a day of vacation because my vacation runs out on December first and starts back over so if I don't use it I loose it. I have one day left so I took this coming Monday so I could spend a mommy and Coop day together. I'll take pics of our special day and post how it goes. I'm looking forward to our time together.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

questions and answers part 3

Lindsay from Miss Priss asked:
Do you like where you live? Do you ever want to live anywhere else? Another city/state?
I love living in Tulsa Oklahoma. I know Oklahoma seems boring and plain but its really not. We get lots of changing seasons. One day its summer weather the next its icy outside (maybe not that crazy but it does go from nice and warm to super cold quickly sometimes). We have lots of trees in Tulsa, and rolling hills and safe and nice neighborhoods. The people in Oklahoma are almost always friendly and nice. You can be in the middle of a busy city one minute and easily go out to the country and be on acres of rolling hills with horses the next. Its a great place to live. We have great food and resturaunts, shopping, tons of job opportunities, and we can go to concerts, or shows in downtown. It really is a nice place to live. I grew up in and around Tulsa. My family now lives 2 hours away right outside of Oklahoma city in Norman. If I didn't have family and tons of friends living here I would probably move to California. I love the beach, the shopping. I love the arts. But fortunately for me I have amazing people that live right here and so this is were we will stay. I'm a home body.
I have included some pictures from my town, Tulsa. Enjoy.

This is a picture of downtown Tulsa at night.


This is the Tulsa Driller.


This is Holy Family cathedral, the Catholic church my hubby and I got married at in downtown Tulsa.


These are the praying hands. They are in front of a University here in Tulsa. I just think they are beautiful.


She also asked:
What's your favorite food, you know something that you could eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner and never get sick of it!
Hmmm well I absolutely love Mexican food. I am always in the mood for Mexican food. I would probably get sick of it if I had it all the time but honestly this would have to be my absolute favorite type of food. I love all types of food but my answer is definitely Mexican.

Dianne asked?
Well... Did you think Cooper would be a boy or were you surprised at the ultra sound?
This is a great question. I always imagined myself with a boy first. I didn't care what I was going to have as long as it was healthy. I want both girls and boys. So we went to the doctor and I was only 8 weeks prego. The babies heartbeat was so fast and our doctor was convinced we were having a girl. He kept telling us that he was almost always right and that he was seeing many signs that our baby was a girl. So I didn't let myself get excited or decide for sure it was a girl. Fast forward to my 10 week appointment. (I got an ultrasound every two weeks for most of my pregnancy). So we of course start our ultrasound and the first thing to pop up on the screen in perfect view was a penis! Yes that's right we new immediately without even having the doctor tell us what it was that we were most definitely having a boy. We were all in shock. One because we had been talking about it being a girl and two because I was only 10 weeks along and it was so clear.
That is how we found out. And I am here to tell you, I knew since I was young I would have a boy first. I don't know why but I always imagined myself with a son first. I will always want a daughter as well and will work for that in the future but am so happy we have our Cooper.

Lindsay at Another place in Paradise asked:
What would be your dream job if you could do anything?
I have a few dream jobs. That's why I had a hard time finishing college. I didn't want to be stuck in only one career. However that was a mistake on my part. I probably should have just finished in one of the dream job choices but I didn't.
Here are a few of the things I would love doing though if I could do anything. I would love to be a nurse or be an ultrasonic technician. I'm a major people person and like to help people. I would say doctor but I don't like the stress of having someones life in my hands. So a nurse would be great. I would also love to be a teacher. This one is something I can do. I worked in a learning center as a Kindergarten teacher for almost 4 years and it was by far the most rewarding job ever. I absolutely loved the kids.
Hmmm I would LOVE to work in interior designing. Or Fashion designing.
But bottom line, my dream job involves a place that makes me happy, pays me decent and somehow makes me feel important. I need to be around lots of people and I need to be able to smile and talk to them.
This answer was long, I think I'll move on to the next one now.
She also asked:
What is your favorite part about having Cooper?
Oh my sweet little tiny Cooper. There are so many wonderful things about having him. I would have to say my favorite part of having him would have to be the moments early in the morning or in the evenings when I can cuddle up on the couch and he falls asleep with his little face right up against mine. He gets so calm when I put my nose against his (I know that sounds weird). But it works and when his reflux is really bothering him or when he's really gassy and upset, I can just either press my cheek against his or put my nose to his and we lay down and he gets calm and drifts off to sleep. He's just so cuddly. These are the memories I will hold in my heart forever.

2 months old

Our sweet boy is two whole months old today. Its amazing to me that he's already two months. This past weekend I was finally able to get some of the millions of pictures we take of him developed. I brought them to work and replaced all my old pictures of friends and the hubby and I with pics of Cooper and of our family. It looks great. I just love being his mommy. I love the sweet cuddles, the sad little pout he makes when he starts to cry.
He's starting to push with his legs allot. He is so strong, He is happy and content with you holding his waist while he stands like a big boy. He's smiling tons and he has quite the little attitude. But that's ok because it just shows what a fun and opinionated personality that he has.
Happy 2 months sweet pea. We love you!