Everything looked good so far.

So we went to the doc today, and it went really well I would say:)!!!!
I mean its still so early and so much is still so scary and iffy but I'm really emotionally attached to this little angel growing inside of me already. I feel like this one is real, like this will be my life, my future. This is my little future life growing inside of me. That's what really scares me, the what if I'm wrong and something goes wrong? But I can't live that way so I'm embracing this angel and I'm praying my heart out with the help of tons of great friends and family and I'm going to enjoy every little step of this.

We did our early pregnancy questionnaire with our nurse, had a ton of blood tests and did our US. There it was, our little baby. The sack looked good and in the middle was a tiny spec of white, way to early for a heartbeat but still the yolk sac was there (that's weird to say yolk sac, Am I the only one who wish there was a better way to explain your early baby growth). But there it was looking good but not quite human form yet. I love love loved it.

My husband Mr. tough guy was sitting there all happy and content with Dr. N. looking and talking very pleased with what he saw. I thought J was going to cry (OK maybe not I can't be sure but it looked like he was entranced in happiness). It was great, They gave us the what to expect when your expecting book, tons of magazines, free prenatal vitamins and meds I might want or need. It was all becoming real finally.

I am however only 5 weeks and 4 days today. That seems so scary, so early. I just want to be in some sort of safe zone, I wish I could see the future and see that all will be great.
Either way yesterday was great. The doctor seemed pleased with what he saw, we go back again next Friday and then the next Friday after that until they can get a heartbeat. I can't wait to hear that. What an amazing thing to experience. :)

I have to tell you that I asked my Dr. a question and his facial expression was hilarious. I actually asked him if my jeans cutting into my tummy could hurt the tiny baby deep inside me. I know, I know its ridiculous. Since first of all I'm not growing at all yet so my jeans being tight is just from me buying to small of jeans and since all the invitro meds are making me swollen still they seem to stick to me like glue. But I'm suddenly so much more aware of my stomach and things tightening around it. I felt silly because he laughed at me and said "no" very blatantly and laughed and said this exact sentence to me "your baby is really low in you right now, basically down in your vagagay, so your jeans can't hurt it" (or however you spell that). It was hilarious. I felt like such a dork but I don't know??? I just wanted to check any small thing that could mess anything up. Anyways it was funny. OK I'll stop now but seriously thanks for following us, Its more than amazing having people who follow and support us.

*Thanks to all of you who are thinking of us and praying for us. It means more than I can ever explain. Keep them coming, we can never have enough prayers and supporters.

Now onto next Friday, Keep growing little one.